My Bella Baby!

I never thought that I would have a daughter. TRULY. my first 2 babies were boys and growing up I always wanted a house full of boys. I was a girl, a teenage girl at that, and I never wanted to experience the things I did or went through with my own daughter. Any woman can relate to the confusing time teenager-hood is, and the hormonal craziness it can bring. For some reason, I thought being a boy couldnt be as bad as what I was as a girl...so thats why I wanted boys.
  Now that I have a daughter of my own, I am completely lossed in the emotional bond I have made with her. Its not more than what I have with Max, but its definately different. I think I bonded with her much quicker than I did with max, for many reasons, but mostly bc we have alot in common. I know my own experiences will be a major factor in how I raise her, where as with Max, he cant really relate to what I went through. Aside from getting to dress in pink, I never realized HOW girly I was myself, until I had Bella. She has really brought out a hidden side of me that I love. Picking out clothes for her and for me, now matter? WHAT? Who is this person? I was always concerend about what I looked like but realized that being a single parent didnt allow my wardrobe to be ever expanding as I would have liked. With Bella, I was really surprised to have a true calling to being more modest. Not that I dressed to expose myself, but I really want for  my example to lead her. I am realizing that had I been more modest in my youth, I would have expected MEN to TREAT ME BETTER! I would have respected exactly how God intented my body to be seen, and would have definately waited for marriage to have sex. Now that I have Bella, I am realizing that how I dress will be her example. How I expect men to treat me, will be how she expects men to treat her. Now understand, I dont expect her to wear a brown sack, and be a nun. I guess I want her to realize that being modest, in the end, will attract a man that likes her for her INTELLECT,PERSONALITY, DEVOTION,FAITH,MORALITY, etc. AlLl the things I always wanted to be respected for, and never actually expected, I can show her how with my own example.

Having a daughter has really opened my eyes to what I should have been doing all along...LISTENING TO MY OWN MOTHER...go figure. I always knew my mom was right but was more comcerned with being a dork, that the state of my soul. I never saw wearing a low cut shirt as leading men into sin...and I would never want Bella to have those things on her soul, without being made aware that it is sinful for her and she is leading others into sin as well. Bella as opened my eyes to a whole new realm of my faith...and I am so glad that I have her to help me lead her by my own example.