we made an attempt at daily mass today BC I was having a hard time giving my anxiety back to the Lord about our finances. I was fully prepared for the difficult time I have been having with Isabella approaching 2, but was confident that with a new drawing pad doddle thing ( that's the technical term) on my phone, that Max would sit quietly. We arrived on time ( amazing), and got a seat in the back row so as not to disrupt everyone with our ups and downs. I handed the phone to Max, and told him to sit quietly so mommy could pray. About 7-8 minutes into mass, aka the homily, I had to take Bells out to stand between the two sets of doors at the back of the church. She was getting into everything, I mean everything...someone had left their umbrella out there...she BROKE IT! She knocked over the Mary statue as well...All I needed was 30 MINUTES with the LORD, 30 MINUTES...i was not going to get it this morning. A few minutes later, Max came RUNNING out to tell me my phone was ringing, at the TOP of his lungs. I instructed him to go sit down, the consecration was coming up and he needed to let other people pray. Skip through the 3 other times he came out to me in the next 5 minutes to the MIDDLE of the most important part of Mass...when I had insisted Max just sit with me in the back...to the handicap doors FLYING OPEN with all their swooshing glory as if we needed EVERYONE to know we were back there...i was mortified...MORTIFIED!!! I gave up and took the kids outside to just sit so I could regain control of myself. I just needed 30 MINUTES...to sit and have receive the Lord's grace for my worry/anxiety...30 MINUTES!!!
i guess the Lord knew my heart was in the right place BC we got word today of some GREAT financial news, and I also had 2 random phone calls for MARY KAY and sold $100 worth of product!!! Thank you Lord, for rewarding my diligence even if it didn't come to fruition! I could definitely look back and smile on today!!
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