welll, Im not sure I am over my depression, but I am better! I am energized, and trying my best to keep the kids busy during the day!!! Mike has a month of leave so I think that will help too!!!
Right now, I am really trying to get ready for the fall. We have so many big things happening in the next 3 months. Mike is deploying Nov. 5-9, My birthday is in 3 weeks, Max;s birthday is in 2 months, Bella turns one a few weeks after that on Thanksgiving...and we are moving back to Charlotte. Im now trying to get Max ready for school, repaint, pack, take care of Bella, do my own school, get Mike ready, mix in family time, balance the checkbook...... I dont know if I can get it all done! Now, I know some of you think I am super woman (lol), but I am not up for all this right now. I really just want to be lazy...AAARRGGGGHHH!!!
So the other day I decided to take control of the chaos that is my life...I am much more productive when I am BUSY...so despite the complaning, I am happy! I have started my day in prayer, and I am eating better. My goal...LOOOSE 100LBS by the time Mike comes back...I know I can do it, despite wanting to sit down and cry about how awful I look right now! I know I can get all my packing done, but I just dont want to do it....LOL!!! how do other moms keep the smile on their faces...i dont want to smile! I want to cry!
Im not sure where this post was going, maybe it was just a vent, but its all the thoughts in my head for now...i just need a hug from a mom who gets this stress...im not sure I am handling it very well, despite my new found faith that I can get it all done...
onto TOMORROW!!
