" For this child I prayed; and the Lord has granted me the petition that I made to Him"
~ 1 Samuel 1:27
I just wanted to blog some JOYOUS thoughts! Thanks to an AMAZING meeting on Monday with some of my most favorite Catholic women, I am having a much better time MOTHERING my children. We talked about patience. What is it? How do we use it? Do we heed God's call to be patient with others as he is with us?
It has really stuck with me the last 3 days, and I must say that I have yet to loose my temper this week. Max has definatly been his usual 4 year old self, and I have tried very hard to imagine God standing there speaking through me to my son. I am writing this mostly because I have realzied that I have NO FEAR about having 3 children. I was very nervous about having 2...and it struck me that this Verse from 1 Samuel..sums it up! Although I have to very energetic kids already...for this child I did pray. I feel God's amazing Grace all over me right now, and I am so thankful that we prayerfully decided to try and have another baby. The emense joy can not be overshadowed by doubt or fear or ...well, ANYTHING!
I continue each day to thank the Lord, for the gift of children, and I am so THANKFUL for amazing, faithfilled Catholic Mothers to help guide my YOUNG faith steps! Thank you Lord for blessing me with these women, and their ever encouraging faith in YOU!!!
~The End
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Baby Mayo #3!
we are very pleased to announce that...WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!! our newest bundle of baby joy will be here July 2011!!
I am super excited for a few reasons
1) We "tried" for 7 months and finally had success!!!
2)Being due in July makes me hopeful that the baby could be born on my Nana's birthday of July 13th!! what a great blessing!
3)MIKE WILL BE HOME IN TIME!! Looking back over our 7 months of trying to concieve, I realize now that this cycle was the right one. Mike will be here. I realize now that having 38 day cycles had a reason, and I am so thankful for God for always knowing what is best for us, even when we dont. He knew we wanted a baby, and brought us one is His prefect timing.
4)Being a mother of 3 is going to be so rewarding. I look forward to being a super busy mom. I enjoy being a super busy mom, sometimes LOL!!!
we are so excited to meet this new little person, and are looking so forward to the coming months!! Thank you Jesus for your countless blessings on our family!
I am super excited for a few reasons
1) We "tried" for 7 months and finally had success!!!
2)Being due in July makes me hopeful that the baby could be born on my Nana's birthday of July 13th!! what a great blessing!
3)MIKE WILL BE HOME IN TIME!! Looking back over our 7 months of trying to concieve, I realize now that this cycle was the right one. Mike will be here. I realize now that having 38 day cycles had a reason, and I am so thankful for God for always knowing what is best for us, even when we dont. He knew we wanted a baby, and brought us one is His prefect timing.
4)Being a mother of 3 is going to be so rewarding. I look forward to being a super busy mom. I enjoy being a super busy mom, sometimes LOL!!!
we are so excited to meet this new little person, and are looking so forward to the coming months!! Thank you Jesus for your countless blessings on our family!
Deployment!
so here we are... 48 hours in, and I am very surprised at how EMOTIONAL I am. I really thought the anxiety over Mike leaving was going to be the worst part of deployment. The anticpation of the final goodbye, hug, kiss..is nothing compared to the agony I feel over...is he sick, tired, lonely, depressed, scared, hungry, homesick. I am finding myself dwealing several times a day over "what is he doing now?" or "how awful Kryjikistan must be". I am truly uneasy with Mike being gone, moreso than I expected, but isnt that the definition of deployment? Expecting everything unexpected. I am not sure if its because I am realizing how much danger he is in, or if its beacuse I feel really guilty for Mike having to be over there at all, considering he is beacuse he is taking care of myself and the kids. I think I am going to address the latter issue first!
I really didnt expect the guilt I would feel over Mike having to go overseas. I know its his job, but it is a job he does to take care of us, not because he enjoys it so much anymore. I recall March 2010 when we were stumped as to what we were going to do for income and how we were going to make ends meet. I feel as though I convinced him to extend in the Navy so that at least we would have a year to be prepared for unemployment. Now, I cant help but realize that WE are the reason he is in Afganistan. His own family...how could we do this to him? There arent a whole lot of words except those. Could I have done more to keep him from having to extend? Should I have commited to job searching more for him? if we stuck to our budget better, would he even be there at all? I know this may sound silly to some, like how could I feel gulity about my husband working, but I really do. ANY MILITARY WIFE KNOWS WHAT I MEAN!!!! its not just a job, its a life, and did I knowingly put my husband in danger because I wanted to stay at home? Now, please understand, that Mike has not made me feel this way. I am doing this to myself. My amazing husband selflessly gives up his life to fight for a country and family he believes in. He drives 120 miles a day to a job he is not happy with for a family he loves. He gets up at 4am and home at 8pm 5 days a week for a family he loves. He is EVEN willing to lay down his life for a family he loves, and expects himself to take the best care that he can of that family. Being in the Navy does that. Unfortunately, it doesnt keep my mind from wondering if there had been better way. If there had been a better way to provide without Mike having to miss births, birthdays, holidays, family time, etdc?? I am almost positive I am really just venting about all this so please bear with me!
The second reason I am so overwhelmed and truly worried is because Mike REALLY is in danger. Where he is located, no one US Military related has been yet. He will be building his own houses/tents, communication lines, supply lines, and baciscally making himself a MEAGER home in the middle of nowhere. I dont know the right words to use to express the emotional side of this fact. Its more than just " my husband is in danger". its more than " he might get hurt". Its HE REALLY MIGHT NOT COME BACK. How do i not allow this thought to cripple my heart. Its realzing that a complete part of your very existence might never be part of you again. Its more than my half my heart. Its HALF MY SOUL. I firmly believe that Mike is my soul mate and with him being over there, half my soul is over there too!! Its realizing that I put half my soul in danger, unknowingly, because lets be honest....none of this would have occured to me BEFORE deployment. How do you say goodbye knowing it really might be that last time you ever see each other? While I believe whole-heartedly in God's ultimate plan, and I do believe that He would not have blessed us with a new baby and never have Mike see that baby...that doesnt make me right. God's ultimate plan could be very different from that. How do I accept this fate even if its God's ultimate will? I believe that hardest part is not knowing the answer, and isnt that always the hardest part of waiting for God's timing?
I take solice and comfort in my amazing family and friends, who will walk this path with me daily. I know you all will watch me fall down and fall down again much as Jesus did. I have no doubt that my resilience will waver, but I know through prayer that God's ultimate will is best for us all. I am so blessed with faith filled friends who will pray with me, and guide me when I do waver. Its uplifting just to remeber that. I ask you all, whoever reads this, to WHOLE-HEARTEDLY keep my family in your prayers, and pray for Mike's safe return. Its all we can afford him, and what he needs the most!
its been 48 hours, only 2347664598643398 hours to go....
I really didnt expect the guilt I would feel over Mike having to go overseas. I know its his job, but it is a job he does to take care of us, not because he enjoys it so much anymore. I recall March 2010 when we were stumped as to what we were going to do for income and how we were going to make ends meet. I feel as though I convinced him to extend in the Navy so that at least we would have a year to be prepared for unemployment. Now, I cant help but realize that WE are the reason he is in Afganistan. His own family...how could we do this to him? There arent a whole lot of words except those. Could I have done more to keep him from having to extend? Should I have commited to job searching more for him? if we stuck to our budget better, would he even be there at all? I know this may sound silly to some, like how could I feel gulity about my husband working, but I really do. ANY MILITARY WIFE KNOWS WHAT I MEAN!!!! its not just a job, its a life, and did I knowingly put my husband in danger because I wanted to stay at home? Now, please understand, that Mike has not made me feel this way. I am doing this to myself. My amazing husband selflessly gives up his life to fight for a country and family he believes in. He drives 120 miles a day to a job he is not happy with for a family he loves. He gets up at 4am and home at 8pm 5 days a week for a family he loves. He is EVEN willing to lay down his life for a family he loves, and expects himself to take the best care that he can of that family. Being in the Navy does that. Unfortunately, it doesnt keep my mind from wondering if there had been better way. If there had been a better way to provide without Mike having to miss births, birthdays, holidays, family time, etdc?? I am almost positive I am really just venting about all this so please bear with me!
The second reason I am so overwhelmed and truly worried is because Mike REALLY is in danger. Where he is located, no one US Military related has been yet. He will be building his own houses/tents, communication lines, supply lines, and baciscally making himself a MEAGER home in the middle of nowhere. I dont know the right words to use to express the emotional side of this fact. Its more than just " my husband is in danger". its more than " he might get hurt". Its HE REALLY MIGHT NOT COME BACK. How do i not allow this thought to cripple my heart. Its realzing that a complete part of your very existence might never be part of you again. Its more than my half my heart. Its HALF MY SOUL. I firmly believe that Mike is my soul mate and with him being over there, half my soul is over there too!! Its realizing that I put half my soul in danger, unknowingly, because lets be honest....none of this would have occured to me BEFORE deployment. How do you say goodbye knowing it really might be that last time you ever see each other? While I believe whole-heartedly in God's ultimate plan, and I do believe that He would not have blessed us with a new baby and never have Mike see that baby...that doesnt make me right. God's ultimate plan could be very different from that. How do I accept this fate even if its God's ultimate will? I believe that hardest part is not knowing the answer, and isnt that always the hardest part of waiting for God's timing?
I take solice and comfort in my amazing family and friends, who will walk this path with me daily. I know you all will watch me fall down and fall down again much as Jesus did. I have no doubt that my resilience will waver, but I know through prayer that God's ultimate will is best for us all. I am so blessed with faith filled friends who will pray with me, and guide me when I do waver. Its uplifting just to remeber that. I ask you all, whoever reads this, to WHOLE-HEARTEDLY keep my family in your prayers, and pray for Mike's safe return. Its all we can afford him, and what he needs the most!
its been 48 hours, only 2347664598643398 hours to go....
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